Therapy Goal- Positive Writing

One of my goals for therapy is to write something positive-  to write about my dad, not about me. I have struggled with remembering my dad, probably because I am so focused on how his death has affected me. I haven't been able to look past it, but I want to. I want to think about my dad with a smile on my face sometimes, not tears streaming down it.


I have had a few dreams with my dad in it. One where we were on a rhino ride together, just talking. He was being so caring, as he always was, just asking how I was doing and how everything was going. I turned to him, and said I thought he died and was not coming back. He said he was gone for awhile, but not forever. I was so relieved, until I woke up. It made me happy to have a dream with him in it, but even more sad that a situation like that won't happen again and it wasn't real. However, the other day, it hit me that maybe it was a message to me. Him being gone is for the rest of my earth life, but not forever. I know that already, but it doesn't comfort me. This comforted me a little. I also had a dream that I was shopping with him, and we ran into some ward members who recently had their son die. He had forgotten that, but was still being so caring. I reminded him, and he was right there with me in the moment.


So for my good memory of my dad that I thought of this week... It was our trip to Walt Disney World in Florida. It was the summer before 10th grade. We had never been to Florida. What I remember most was being at the Epcot Center with my dad and family. We loved going to all the different countries. My dad had installed in us a love of travel and learning about different cultures. I particularly remember his excitement in the German area, because it was so similar to the real place. I had been to Germany with my dad and mom when I was in seventh grade, so it meant something more to me. My dad was a good sport the whole trip. He participated in all the rides and activities. Up to that point in my life, that was the biggest trip I had been on in the U.S.. I feel very blessed to have had that opportunity with him. I plan to find my pictures, and I'm sure more memories of that trip will flood back to me.